Cruel joke of infertility
I am 38 and reaching a point when infertility has taken over my life. I suffered from depression all my life but hoped things will get better. Now after 2 failed icsi cycles I decided to sell my only property to finance treatment. The cruelty of having to carry a dead baby for a week after diagnosis of missed miscarriage is horrible . I am counting down days to d and c. Infertility is worse than cancer. Except if you have cancer and infertility. Anyway it is living hell. My husband is infertile and refuses donor. But for self preservation I decided to go for a donor after another failed cycle . It's either this or suicide. My life was living he'll all along but this is worse than everything else. Infertility is he'll and failed cycles are torture. When we conceived after 4 th transfer this finished with miscarriage. It is unbearable.